Missing the Mark!

Have you ever felt like you missed it? Somewhere along the way what you thought, didn’t come or you gave up on something that you know God spoke to you about? In the height of Frustration you realize I missed it! Maybe it’s anger or worse, bitterness? Believe it or not friends we can go months or even years with the root of bitterness and never realize just how far we have gotten of the forgiveness path.

I have been here so many times to the point now, where I am almost immediately convicted of it now.Let me say it took a long time to get there. I must have caught more than a few of my share of Offences. I have given a few and taken some that were never meant for me. I have lived and as long as you have lived you will come into Offenses.

Jesus said:

Luke 17:1 Then said He unto His disciples, “It is impossible but that offenses will come, but woe unto him through whom they come! We are going to face it. How do we overcome.

It is not that they don’t come, it is what you do with them after that. We have to choose to let go of Bitterness. It really hurts us and is a tactic of the enemy and has a underlying root it is called PRIDE. Yeah we don’t want to admit that.

I know I said missed the Mark and maybe you feel like I haven’t taken Offense, OK that is  great. Maybe that isn’t you but here is a real Statement. If you have missed it the go to God ask for forgiveness. Move on. It is that simple. Let go of what is holding you back! Forgive the apology you will never receive. Thank God for Jesus and receive the full Forgiveness that he died to give you.

The walk is long when we try to go alone, we aren’t letting God have our burdens we want to carry them and be responsible for them. God allows us time to carry them. All the While he waits for us to realize that he can carry them and we can be free.

Let it Go Friend! Today!

Beauty unfolds

What is Beauty to you?

Beauty unfolds in the blink of an eye.

When we see what is hidden inside.

If we stay long enough to let old walls die.

And remember that old owls are wise.

If we learn to listen instead of speak.

there we will find whats profound at it's peak.

If we listen with our heart instead of our mind.

That is where we seek and fin

   True beauty comes with patience so kind...

   It doesn't look so pretty at times..

      Sometimes it come with age and thin lines.

             If we stay and be consistent.

            then we see where others have missed it.

              It will set it self free.

           It comes in the form of hurt hearts that need to mend.

           It is the beauty of a great friend!

Time

Ever think about what really matters? We are not promised tomorrow give all you can today!

Hard pill to swallow: 

Think of it if you are lucky enough to live a full life, imagine being in a hospital bed knowing it is your time to go. 

Will you be happy with the decisions that you made in your life?

 I can see me gauged in thought have I done the right things? 

 Have I love with my whole heart and held nothing back?

 Am I leaving a legacy that I want to be remembered for? 

It has been said that it doesn't matter what you've done or said but how you made others feel that sticks. 

I think will I have regrets? 

Will I have untended relationships?
 Hurts just thinking about it...

Have I showed others what is in my heart have?

I done what was best for them and not me? 

I am very aware of how fast the end can creep up. 

My father died when I was 14 and in the matter of one year he was gone. 

He was 33 years old.

As I became 33 this year I look at my life and think of him wondering how afraid he was know that time was coming?

Feeling like the dream of a life that he would have expected to carry out was probably not going to happen.

 I look at my kids I imagine being him...

It really puts it perspective thinking about all that I would miss and it breaks my heart more now than ever.  

 Sick, the cancer filled his body.

 I was not able to grasp the sickness with my adolescent mind.

 I was a rebellious teenager running every time I had the chance. 

Trying to figure out who I was. 

Some times I wonder if he felt like I should have spent more time with him. 

I Guess that is just apart of the guilt I felt the day i watched him die. 

There wasn't time for words. 

However it haunts me the ability that you have to someone can be just ripped from your hands because you didn't savor the moment!

 I think about the moments we had and how much I admired him.

 Not because he was awesome father figure, it took him a long time to gain that title.

Early on he was an alcoholic who abused my mom, He treated us kids good but he wasn't very good to her or to our upbringing. 

Even now I can run into people and they tell me what a legendary fighter he was and how strong and great he was. I used to think he was a super hero!

 He could back flip and walk on his hands. 

Oh I loved my Daddy.

 What would he have wanted me to carry on... 

Not the Alcohol or the abuse, that I did carry for many years.

 But believe that he would want me to carry on his understanding. 

When he was sick he wasn't able to drink, all his friends dwindled away and he found what really mattered the hard way... 

I watched my father cry at different times continually his friends were gone I know it hurt that he traded us in for them so many times, and now they were gone. 

I know that he looked around and found what really mattered. 

He never raised his voice again only his eye- brows.

 But in that 1 year he loved us and God filled up for lost time... 

He realized what mattered!

How about you?

Jesus asked: Who do you say that I am?

Jesus is calling us to a deeper knowledge of him... Her is speaking to us through his word. He is saying who do you say I am?

Who is this Jesus?

Matthew 16:13-20

“Who do people say the Son of Man is?”

¹⁴ They replied, “Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah or one of the prophets.”

¹⁵ “But what about you?” he asked. “Who do you say I am?”

¹⁶ Simon Peter answered, “You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God.”

¹⁷ Jesus replied, “Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah, for this was not revealed to you by flesh and blood, but by my Father in heaven. ¹⁸ And I tell you that you are Peter,^[a] and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades^[b] will not overcome it. ¹⁹ I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be^[c] bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be^[d] loosed in heaven.” ²⁰ Then he ordered his disciples not to tell anyone that he was the Messiah.

(Bible Gateway: NIV)

Who is Jesus? He was a lamb slain before the foundation of the earth. He was already, before Adam. I am and continue to be amazed with the way that God thinks and his mind. As David say’s in Psalm 139:6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,too lofty for me to attain. I can not begin to understand all the wisdom that he has. Amazing is he. I know he loved us so much and when we start to grasp who and why he is and was, God reveals Jesus more and more. Jesus is the son of God to me in goes so much deeper because he is my savior my Rock everything that I am. Grundy say’s That Mathew’s reoccurring stress on Jesus’s fulfillment of the old Testament law and messianic prophecy as well as tracing his history back to Abraham was to fulfill prophecy. Jesus was the word made flesh. So God spoke the word it was written down the Jesus came to complete it.

What do men Think of me? Men are still saying the same (Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah or one of the prophets.”) Maybe they aren’t saying Elijah or John the baptist . However; some say he is a prophet. Some confess Jesus as the Son of God others believe different following false doctrines.

Then he goes on to say” Who do you say that I am?” This is one of the most revealing scriptures in the New Testament. This show’s me that it is God’s responsibility to reveal the son to us. When I read this a couple of years ago it spoke so clear to me. I thought there were different ways to come to the revelation of who Christ was. Reading extensively trying to know his heart, doing works. You know that Judas walked with Jesus and I have heard it said that he didn't have the true revelation of who Jesus was and if he did his heart would have been changed. I have also heard it said that Judas thought that Jesus was going to stop them because of who he was. I know that since it has been revealed to me I will never be the same. There could not have been a true revelation of Christ other wise it would have changed the course of history. He could not have gained this revelation because he was supposed to do what he had done. So that that which was written would come to pass.

Jesus goes on to say that Peter could not have known this on his own but the father hath revealed it to him. I believe that we have to have the eyes of our heart enlightened and there are many things we don’t understand but God reveals as we can handle.

CCurry.

Emotional Abuse.. from the inside out. Okay so what's next. Aftermath of abuse at it's worse! What happens when you can't function in society. I was scared to death. Learn about the affects of abuse!

After the smoke clears, The physical abuse is gone. there is a small voice that says's You are not worthy! 

Growing up in utter dysfunction, having to live in a violent home. Then as an adult I chose to say 

enough was enough. I walked away from the only thing I ever knew as normal. Being hurt by the one 

that I thought loved me. Take a deep breath and start again. Two children and a world of hurt.

I remember looking out the window thinking where do we go from here? I knew I had to be strong, not

 strong in the sense of taking the abuse. I another way a way I had never known. Venturing into a new 

era. Alone with the world on my shoulders and two children on each arm. I knew that the cycle of 

violence that I helped perpetrate had to end. It was time to start something good for my family. Inside I 

was waging an unknown WAR. On the outside people would tell me I was courageous and heroic. 

However there was a little different voice inside one that would challenge others. You can call it verbal

 abuse, or emotional even, brain washed. All I know is I constantly fought myself to be better than the 

voice said. I could not function clearly in society, afraid to smile, heart broken. I only felt comfortable with 

my children in my arms. So I held on tight to them. Before we were under constant emotional 

surveillance. Unable to show emotion, we had to learn all over again. As I continued on the new path for 

our lives. We were beginning to heal. There was something inside that said it was always going to hurt. I

 felt it like a knife standing in the grocery line. It was just a friendly greeting "Hello" a voice would say. I 

could almost see myself climb within looking around afraid I would reply Hi. I asked myself why I was a 

pretty outgoing Girl before. Now I had become inward an detached from the outside. I asked my self

when did this happen to me. I felt like the mafia was following me. I was paranoid and scared. Enclosed

 by the four walls of an abuse shelter. My children and I alone in our new room. It was around 

Christmas, just days before. The kids were saying Mama does Santa know we moved? What angels 

they were. Of course he does! No one understood the battle inside. I decided that I was going to have 

to break the inner voice in order to begin with a full heart. It started small just a thought of how awesome

 my children thought I was. I would think on that all day. Then I began to test boundaries when someone

spoke to me I would speak back. and conscientiously say don't look around or be afraid. Was I afraid?

 Yes. Would I fall into the emotion NO. I realized that I didn't have to agree with it anymore. I realized that 

I was safe and I was going to continue a brand new life I couldn't take fear and anxiety where I was 

going! I started to go to church and the bible came alive to me. All of the words God spoke directly to

me. I Started to truly heal and gain understanding. I found Love like I had never knew.

I wrote this in hope that it could help someone who is in this place come out. Also for those who have no

 understanding of what it is like to be in this place. The pain carries long after the end. It is inappropriate 

for others to ridicule the abused as though they should snap out of it. They have to gain their own 

strength this takes patience and love.

Three things to consider before saying Good-bye

Is it time to say good bye? The man of your dreams has become A Nightmare! Three simple things to ask your self first!

Those things that were so cute before, aren't cute anymore. You used to lay in the bed all day and talk. Now not only aren't you talking but he is still in the bed and half the day is over! Yep not so cute huh? So what do you do at moments like this? Do you throw in the towel or stick it out.

Here are some good points to examine before you call the Game over....

1. Is this worth throwing away? Whether big or small when we are bothered by a pet peeve it can turn into a monster! So what is going on? If it sleeping all day ask yourself why? Maybe he or she is stressed or depressed. Flipping out wont help these situations only a good pick me up will help! So are you wanting to throw away what you have over stress, or depression? If so your significant other probably deserves some one who will put in the work..

2. Ask yourself really do you care anymore? Endless words, with no meaning, usually mean some where communication lines got crossed or lost. Whether you or him. Buckle in it maybe a bumpy ride with some things you may not want to hear. Let him or her open up and tell you where they feel the issues lye. However this has to be a two way street so you must be allowed to talk as well. note: arguing in this time will only cause more damage so give each other the chance to say there heart.

3. Can I see them with someone else? Particularly in this culture, where there is comparison around ever door. If you decide to walk away will you be OK with them moving on? Don't be the one who says Oh no I made a mistake. If it is worth it stay if not get out!

You only get one life. This is meant for daters not married couples! If you decided to marry them you have already made a commitment so remember why you married them and work together to get passed it. Lastly real relationships only work if two are working in them otherwise it is not a relationship~

Carolyn Curry

How to Portray and Display Confidence

Wow the people around you. Change your world

 just by carring your self with confidence.

How can you cause the Atmosphere  to change when you enter a room. Yes your confidence.

How to portray confidence... Well you have to begin to look at things this way. Others see you the way you portray yourself so if you enter a room knowing that you are well put together, mentally, physically, and socially. Then you will pull the people to you.

Body language - What do your body language say about you..

Standing with your shoulders inward says you are holding back,afraid others wont accept you.

Indirect eye contact, when you look at someone do you look them in the eyes, or look down or out. Looking down say's that you are afraid that they are going to reject you. Looking out says you are simply not engaged.

Do you fidget? Moving your hands constantly, biting your lip, cracking your knuckles they are all nervous and yes annoying reactions that stop you from looking confident.

If you want to portray Confidence it is all mind over matter. Mentally prepare yourself, figure out what is causing you to look timid and tell yourself that you aren't going there!

Simply realizing it means you are one step closer. So now that you've done that put it to practice.

Here is one fact. You are completely capable of being confident. Another fact is this, no one else can do it for you.

I myself am a very confident person, not because I always feel like it. Simply because I believe that I have the ability to display confidence. Take control of your self by making decisive choices be able to know what you want is a confidence booster as well.

Do your homework. If you are buying a car you wanna know something about cars.

Of you are going to a prestigious party be dressed and aware of what you will be doing.

Even if you are unsure about what you want at dinner make the choice as if you knew all along.

If for some reason you say something stupid.... So what laugh with your friends co-workers, Being confident doesn't mean that you are always right or you never slip up. It simply means that you are able to believe in your self and trust who you are. If you are confident in yourself others will be too.

Direct eye contact says I can Handel this conversation head on, it also says you are worthy of my time and my eyes.

Standing straight up say's I am in control of my body and I am open for conversation.

Focus on what ever is at hand. handling the situations as they come or conversations as they come. Finish it out don't walk away unless the conversation is done it show that you are grounded and not flighty.

These are easy way to display confidence I am certain that if you are able to put these into practice you will notice a difference in the way interact... Others will too.